Public diary #01

Lately I felt the urge to explore a different world. It was fun. I learned many things. I tried most of the things that I see on tv and those that are mostly done by this fvcked up generation. I got a sorta sneak peak of what “they” are doing, and what kind of world they have, which is pretty much different from mine.

is no greater happiness than being with my own stuff, my own style, my own weird world. I love reading, I look up to people like bob ong, lourd de veyra, ramon bautista, eros atalia, dong abay and at the same time, I am entertained highly by kpop, kdrama, and other Korean stuff.

 I love music, and I hate discriminations, like, rock or metal is satanic, kpop is gay, opm is boring, reggae is for the “high” people. I don’t know, I mean did they have some kind of study to prove their conclusion? Did they listened to all kpop songs and came up to a generalization that the music those people worked hard for to do is trash and infecting the mind of the people? (Well maybe their heads are the ones infected).Maybe the flaw is just on the listeners or the fans, who is not in the right track in showing their love for the music, and not the music at all. Try to think of it.  I hate people trying to hate something just to be “in” or just to act and be cool.

I realized that I don’t have to fit in, and to prove myself to others- that what they think about me is wrong.

I’ll just live this way. And be chincha daebak!

Fangirling 'poem'

I don't care much of the pain

Pain that can make me insane

Insane heart shouting your name

Name  that I love

Love they say that's lame

Lame as it can be

Be a fool for you, as they can see

See my dying heart

Heart that only seeks your heart

Heart that not only pumps blood

Blood that flows out when i'm not glad

Glad ,Ain't when you're with others

Others that for you are better

Better than I am to be with you

You now must tell me what to do

Do to make you feel what I feel, only for you

You still are my Love, Even if for you I m not.


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Just me :)

Mesmerized

 I’m mesmerized by you,

On the things that you do.

I don’t get the clue,

If you really are true.

You’re an impossible dream,

You stole my heart, it seems.

Just like in the movie scenes,

Maybe I should stop

watching romantic films.

Falling in love is not what I ought to do.

It only breaks the heart not only I into two.

But my heart found you,

Hope your heart would find me too.

I’m starting to believe again,

And I’m expressing my love with this pen.

With this pen I’ll write every now and then,

This love I’m nearly believin’.

No “US”

Well maybe I’m just over reacting,

Thinking that we will have something,

Something like you plus me,

Yeah I know, it’s kinda silly.

The things you had taught to me,

Moments with you beside the sea,

Making this poem, I think of you,

And rhyming words too.

I've known you for a long time,

Times with you were like in cloud nine,

Remembering that, would make me fine,

Even if thinking of it was a crime.

I’m not asking for more,

Begging for your love is what for?

If you wouldn't simply fall

It will be a big trouble.

It=Love=You

When I think of it,

The “it” becomes “you”;

“It” that must be “love”,

“Love” is now “you”.

I don’t know you well,

But you make me weak;

The way you move

makes the world stop;

My heart skips a beat.

Now will I be picked?

If you will select “love”

Will “I” be “it”

If “it” is “love”?

Yes, I doubt,

‘Cause the “I” is ordinary;

Nothing special to you,

No matter what “I” do.

But “I” thinks that,

“Love” is “you”

Not quite sure if,

“I” love “You”

I am ME

Some people have straight hair, some have curly. Some have dark complexion and some have fair. Some love pink, some love black. Some are sensitive and some our loud. And some are loud and sensitive. We all differ from each other in our own way. We are naturally born unique and we have our own external influence that builds our personality. Nature and nurture. The only thing that makes us the same is that we are all unique.

Because of this, criticisms cannot be escaped. We cannot escape the subjective mind, judgmental eyes, and hurtful words from uncontrolled lips of those judgmental people. Girls wearing simple t-shirt with old jeans and rubber shoes are plain and boring or boyish. Those wearing sleeveless and mini-skirts are judged as, “socialistas”, or worse, as flirts. Boys that are more comfortable mingling with girls are judged as gays. Boys with several earrings are gangsters. Good girls and boys, standing for what is right are KJs or Kill Joys. Silent people are weird, loud people are shallow. Muslims are judged as terrorists. That is how worse judgmental people are.

Words are painful and it can also hurt our feelings. Some people are really straight forward or frank they say whatever they want to say, not aware of what other people might feel. They just release words from their mouth even if it is so senseless that will just insult other people. Speaking without caring for the feelings of others may result to bullying someone, emotionally, socially and psychologically, and it is not good. Yes, it is better to be a straight forward person than to be a backstabber, but we must think before we speak. Remember that what you say does not surely define others, but clearly defines who you are. The worst thing is you frankly insult and you are a backstabber at the same time. We must always keep in mind that we only know what a person is now, not his/her whole journey in life, and therefore we shouldn't be that judgmental and easily jump into conclusions.

For the victims of those judgmental and verbally- careless people, just don’t let them bring you down. Take it positively; make it an inspiration for you to be a better person. If what they say are just pure non-sense, then prove them wrong. And if you hate to be judged, then you must also avoid judging people.

We all have our own personality, strengths and weaknesses that should be respected by each one of us. What people think or say about us can be an eye-opener, for us to change for the better. We must not be violent enough to create nemesis. If they are just so sassy and gossip beings, don’t let them devastate you.  Stand for who you are and be proud to say, “I AM ME”.